We went on a trail ride today, and I have to say it wasn't really fun, per se. But it was something I needed to get out of the way.
I haven't been out on anything more than our immediate trail area since the entire "Do I Even Want to HAVE a Horse" episode. And when my friend and trainer arranged for us to ride the big ranch next door I wondered if I could or should.
I very nearly chickened out.
Smokey and I had several "conversations" on the trail. He was a bit up, but I knew I was significantly contributing to it with my anxiety and tried to get myself in a better frame of mind. I was only somewhat successful, but we did get some training done and made some progress.
Frankly I think *I* need some desensitization. I need some successful trail rides with him. I need to do some WTC rides in settings where I feel comfortable.
It's going to be a longer road back than I had hoped, but I did expect it.
So I plan on trying to mix in some travel to friend's places, to arenas, to just get out and about but not just trails.
I'm on the road back, but to be the leader I need to be on the trail, I need more wet saddle blankets too.
But at least today I got one. A tough one.